Wednesday, 25 July 2012
Have you ever thought about how you think? I have lately. It has always bothered me that I'm not very imaginative. I lack the ability to create anything visually. I often even forget the details in people's faces and when I attempt to describe or visualize someone's eyes, smile or intricate detail like that, it's usually some deformed Picasso. I wanted to be so artistic when I was a kid, I thought I could learn to draw. I remember actually realizing I could draw very well, but only if it was a copy of a picture right next to me. My husband is a wonderful artist, and words have very little impact on his life, I however function solely on words, their meanings and almost every clear thought is in words. This has created a barrier at times; I need his words he needs less of mine.
I choose art work for our home with words in it, Johnny prefers no words and likes to let the art just be. Meanwhile I feel like if a word is not expressed, it could be misunderstood. Silly, huh? To me, words are art all on their own. Words are the only way I can express myself.
I remember when I learned to drive, people would give me directions based on landmarks, it would make me crazy! I needed street names. I have difficulty remembering pictures, I do better to have an image of the word. I actually physically imagine words flowing through my mind and my days are filled with my own minds dialect, like a narrative. I process words and feelings... I define situations and memories based on keywords and things people said rather than their expressions or things I would have to visually remember. I like to take pictures for fear that I won't remember what my own children looked like as babies.
When I attempt to remember images, like from a dream or something, I am certain it was a particular person, but when I see them face to face after, the reality that I have seriously distorted their looks always pauses me for a moment. I don't dream much, but when I have a vivid dream and its actually colorful, it's probably a once every few year occurrence.
So it has occurred to me, some people mostly see in pictures, while others mostly see in words or concepts. It's interesting to think about these things,to realize the differences in all of us.