As I was driving home from an emotional workout due to a two-week old injury that is hindering my marathon training… the Lord spoke to me. Oh the beauty of His Holiness, the precious peace of His voice. I was, as always, in Awe of Him.
He comforted me as I was trying to muddle through the good things that could come of working around an injury. I know that life offers many opportunities for growth and this, like all the others, would just be an opportunity so long as I didn’t let it take away the significance of the lesson. I’m determined to learn through every obstacle and let it lead me to a better me.
As I had finally realized that just maybe this injury could be serious enough to restrain me from the long miles my heart, my head and my soul wanted to embark on… I began to cry. I also allowed the determined passion in me to look for a way to fight harder and make something of the situation – it was then that my God stepped in to share His heart with me.
One thing I remember so clearly was that He adores me. Do you know how much He adores you? I’m not better than you, so that same adoration He has for me, is also yours.
But, let me try to start from the beginning of our conversation, I have been through a pretty drastic shift in my faith. One that some would lose their faith over. I have held on the best I could as I’ve studied and felt the Lord lead me in a direction I never planned to go. I know this may not make sense, depending on what your personality type generally lends you to feel and experience in faith… but being an ENFP (my MBTI type, google if you’d like to know more), I’m actually pretty open minded, excited about new adventure and don’t find a whole lot of security, or need for it, when things are steady and repeated. I actually find a lot of life and adventure in stepping out into the unknown, discovering a new passion and flying by the seat of my pants. Planning just makes me feel trapped and confined… while spontaneous exploration revitalizes me and reveals a zest and passion for the beauty of something undiscovered.
The Lord knew I’d need to be exactly who I am to do what He called me to do. He spoke clearly about that. He said that we all have our place, and none is better than the other, but no one could do what I need to do in the Kingdom… and no one can do what you need to do in the Kingdom. We’ve each been designed with a purpose… I love who I am because I know my purpose can only be fulfilled in me through my special design.
My husband needs security. He requires planning, spending time understanding how each step will effect his future and relies heavily on past experiences and knowledge to help direct his future endeavors. I on the other hand will do just about anything on a whim for the pure joy of moment. And I feel totally safe doing it.
This is where my specific make-up comes into play. Not everyone can leave their faith. God doesn’t call everyone to either, because not everyone can walk a lonely path and forge ahead for changes that require fearless abandon and faith in relationship regardless of the safety religion provides. Each one of our purposes require faith to fulfill.
You see, I have a passion and a vision to see the Bride of Christ rise up and function in the beauty of the unity God designed Her. I long for the day that denominations no longer handicap her and see walks Fully in her Wholeness with Christ as her Head, her covering and her Bridegroom. She is spotless, strong and ready. She is Beautiful!!!
Some of us are called to work in a church, in a building. Some are called to the streets… to the homeless, to free the captives. Really, as a whole, we are all called to work together to do it ALL. As individuals contributing to the same vision of unity and oneness, there is something we’ve never quite done yet – be ONE. We’ve been divided since the beginning.
I remember being taught that one of the definitions of the Devil was: divider.
Devil: Greek word diabolos - dia=through; ballo=to throw (38 ref.) – slanderer,
misrepresenter, deceiver, divider, accuser, divider
I also got a vision of the church a week ago. The church also being a term interchangeable with The Bride. I saw pieces everywhere… the whole entire world was covered. There weren’t even whole parts anywhere… no full arm, no full legs… hands. Just a bunch of butchered parts scattered everywhere. It was a devastating view of the state of our Body. One I wish I could erase from my mind.
The devil has been on a mission to separate, mutilate and destroy the function of the Church. It is his greatest work so far – denominations. The separations in our beliefs have rendered us useless. We wonder why the Gospel is not exploding and our efforts are falling short. We are looking for more programs and building more denominations all without realizing the damage that has been done to ‘preserve’ our individual interpretations of the truth. We don’t agree with each other so we just chop off our finger and assume function without it. We allow our denominations to puff us up and suppose our human nature has been capable of finding the “ONE” and “only” perfect truth of Christ. We’ve allowed our body to be chopped up and the Enemy of the Kingdom of God Almighty is laughing at our dismay.
I’ve begun digging deep into the roots of division. I’ve wrestled with the loneliness and I’d fought my own demons trying to make sense of what feels like the wilderness at this time, but I KNOW that He has been leading me. I know that He is keeping me… and even though I may not belong to this denomination or that, I am still fully aware of my relationship and calling in Christ. He speaks to me. I feel Him. I trust Him and He’s taking me somewhere only He could… I love it even when it’s a mystery.
You may be called to do something totally different than I am. Embrace it! This is my journey… this is the burden I carry and even if no one agrees, I am CERTAIN I’m where I’m called to be. I pray I will get to see some dramatic changes in the coming together and rebuilding of the broken Bride… I hope it is in my lifetime, but even if it’s not – I will fight for Her, I will not stop. I will not back down and I will hold onto this truth and vision of wholeness!
Let Love Lead – it will make you fearless!
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