I was doing a lot of reflection as my life is changing and I was flying through preparation for school. Yesterday was my first day. It went well and I’m ready to get to work.
I’m an incredibly passionate person and while I think it is at the core of who I am… I forget that other people just don’t get it. It often leaves me misunderstood and kind of on my own. BUT, one thing I didn’t realize is that when my passions aren’t shared with other people in my life, I tend to go on my own to ‘delve’ into whatever it is I fancy at the time – alone. I didn’t realize how much I do this, and how it effects the people in my life who love me and need me around. I especially do this if I feel threatened or criticized. I just find a new thing to pour myself into to feel better and use my passionate drive as an excuse to ignore other things that are less than impressive or interesting.
Does anyone else have this problem?
How about you Lonnie, @such_are_you? is it an ENFP thing?
My closest friend didn’t mean to bring this to my attention, but I could tell something was bothering her. She said she finally understands why Johnny feels how he does with me. I started unraveling all this then.
If you are my passion… it’s incredible! I like and breath you. but, when my passion or interest changes to something else… I don’t realize that I leave everything behind. I have a one track mind. It’s actually really annoying and really cool at the same time.
I’m mostly concerned that my children will feel abandoned as they get older and mom is stuck in ‘passion-mode’ and they can’t reach me.
I get stuck in ‘studying’ a new subject; writing; running; new friendships; ministry opportunities (volunteering for a good cause); now I’ve got school. I remember how focused I was on my pregnancies. My children. I remember times in life based on whatever passionate drive I was chasing or letting carry me at the time.
I have such difficulty balancing things. I really don’t know how to open up my mind and gain the ability to do it all, giving the proper attention to each thing. I’m an all or nothing kind of person to the extreme. My poor Johnny. No wonder he has hated all that I have loved. It replaced him for the moment.
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